So as I'm sure I've said before, the past few days, J has been out of nation and hasn't had any stable form of internet. And jeez, it's only been like... 4 days now, but... it's really difficult. People say that long distance is hard; when you're in an LDR, you don't get the little touches and the physical things you get from an in-person relationship. They say cause of that, (most) LDRs are destined to fail.
While this is true, I think lots of people don't give verbal communication enough credit (and by this, I mean anything using words... texting, emails, letters, what have you). Nowadays, what with such advanced technology, it's easy to take communication for granted. You can get a reply instantly from anyone you want to talk to no matter where they are. Unless, of course, they don't have any means of communication.
Then all of a sudden, you're left with this... dead end. If you think of something funny to say, or just wanna check with them really quickly to see how they are, you can't. The weirdest part, for me, at least, is that there was no way to let him know that I was thinking about him. I couldn't quickly text "gnight" like I normally did, or send him a playful little text about cute burrito guy (HEHEHE). The morbid side of me didn't even know if he had gotten to his destination safely (I tried to not think about this one, though HAHA >_>).
So I resorted to sending him short (...ok maybe not so short) emails every day just letting him know how my day went. Goofy stories, little drawings (if my damned tabby would work properly), just a couple (hundred lolol-_-) words obviously written by me (because according to Caronee I have a good voice lolol) to let him know that yes, I was still thinking about him, and that he was still important to me. And god this sounds so melodramatic for just 3 days without contact -__-... It just felt really dumb because I knew I wasn't gonna get a reply anytime soon, so it was kind of like I was rambling on and on to no one (kinda like this blog, actually, but this is funXD).
So then, today, when I woke up to 5 emails from him... well. I was just really happy. It was just a bunch of words; there were no pictures, no gestures and no body language. But somehow, just receiving the couple hundred of words and because of them, knowing that he was ok and thinking about me... it made me feel so much happier. (I was grinning like a fool for awhile bahaha)
Yes, being apart is hard. Not having the physical aspect of the relationship (any relationship! Not just bf/gf) is hard too. But honestly, as long as you still have a form of communication, use it. Tell 'em whatever you want to say anytime you want to say it. Don't take it for granted, cause once the choice is gone... Man, you suddenly realize how big the world is.
I think I might even go after le old-fashioned letter writing, now that I have his address. He said he sent me mail... and I've always wanted an international pen pal :DDDDDDDD!!!!
Anyway, that was all sappy goopey and disgusting romantic shit... TIME FOR SOME FUN STUFF.
So, a week ago or so, I woke up randomly at 5am and couldn't figure out why.. so I just rolled over and went back to sleep. Then later that day, J told me he had woken up at 8am his time... What a coincidence! And then last night, I had a dream about him where he snuck up and gave me a surprise hug... and it just so happened that it was the same night he was writing emails to me! Can this be?! We must be psychic-ly linked!!!! XDDDD I actually remember reading about this somewhere. Something about if you're close enough to someone, you two will start feeling/thinking the same things? Donno if I think it's true though. Lololol
Also, yesterday, cute burrito guy got offended that I wasn't getting mexican food for lunch, so long story short, I wound up promising him that I would get something there today. Anyway, cute burrito guy asked me my name today! And then he told me he loved it! Oh stop it, you. You'll make me blush. XDDD CD tells me he's flirting with me. I think he's just being sweet :D Or... at least I hope he's not flirting. I don't know how to deal with flirting people.
Anyway, that's it for my lunch break! Back to work! :D
While this is true, I think lots of people don't give verbal communication enough credit (and by this, I mean anything using words... texting, emails, letters, what have you). Nowadays, what with such advanced technology, it's easy to take communication for granted. You can get a reply instantly from anyone you want to talk to no matter where they are. Unless, of course, they don't have any means of communication.
Then all of a sudden, you're left with this... dead end. If you think of something funny to say, or just wanna check with them really quickly to see how they are, you can't. The weirdest part, for me, at least, is that there was no way to let him know that I was thinking about him. I couldn't quickly text "gnight" like I normally did, or send him a playful little text about cute burrito guy (HEHEHE). The morbid side of me didn't even know if he had gotten to his destination safely (I tried to not think about this one, though HAHA >_>).
So I resorted to sending him short (...ok maybe not so short) emails every day just letting him know how my day went. Goofy stories, little drawings (if my damned tabby would work properly), just a couple (hundred lolol-_-) words obviously written by me (because according to Caronee I have a good voice lolol) to let him know that yes, I was still thinking about him, and that he was still important to me. And god this sounds so melodramatic for just 3 days without contact -__-... It just felt really dumb because I knew I wasn't gonna get a reply anytime soon, so it was kind of like I was rambling on and on to no one (kinda like this blog, actually, but this is funXD).
So then, today, when I woke up to 5 emails from him... well. I was just really happy. It was just a bunch of words; there were no pictures, no gestures and no body language. But somehow, just receiving the couple hundred of words and because of them, knowing that he was ok and thinking about me... it made me feel so much happier. (I was grinning like a fool for awhile bahaha)
Yes, being apart is hard. Not having the physical aspect of the relationship (any relationship! Not just bf/gf) is hard too. But honestly, as long as you still have a form of communication, use it. Tell 'em whatever you want to say anytime you want to say it. Don't take it for granted, cause once the choice is gone... Man, you suddenly realize how big the world is.
I think I might even go after le old-fashioned letter writing, now that I have his address. He said he sent me mail... and I've always wanted an international pen pal :DDDDDDDD!!!!
Anyway, that was all sappy goopey and disgusting romantic shit... TIME FOR SOME FUN STUFF.
So, a week ago or so, I woke up randomly at 5am and couldn't figure out why.. so I just rolled over and went back to sleep. Then later that day, J told me he had woken up at 8am his time... What a coincidence! And then last night, I had a dream about him where he snuck up and gave me a surprise hug... and it just so happened that it was the same night he was writing emails to me! Can this be?! We must be psychic-ly linked!!!! XDDDD I actually remember reading about this somewhere. Something about if you're close enough to someone, you two will start feeling/thinking the same things? Donno if I think it's true though. Lololol
Also, yesterday, cute burrito guy got offended that I wasn't getting mexican food for lunch, so long story short, I wound up promising him that I would get something there today. Anyway, cute burrito guy asked me my name today! And then he told me he loved it! Oh stop it, you. You'll make me blush. XDDD CD tells me he's flirting with me. I think he's just being sweet :D Or... at least I hope he's not flirting. I don't know how to deal with flirting people.
Anyway, that's it for my lunch break! Back to work! :D
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