So I'm failing at this challenge a bit... >_> There's a good reason for it, I swear!
You see... in a week now (holy shit oh my god) I am going to be taking the GRE.
...and I am going to fail. Grunt.
Honestly it feels like I'm back in high school studying for the SATs all over again.. Except I think I've become a lot dumber since high school... Seriously what happened to all my brilliance? It just disappeared! Also my work ethic is basically gone... as is all of my motivation. What has happened to me?! >_> Maybe life just suddenly became hard. I miss high school when everything was easy peasy we can all just happily float along and expend no effort to do well. Sighs.
But grad school?? my nonexistant readers ask.
Yes. I am indeed trying to get into gradschool. Unfortunately, my grades suck complete ass, so I'm probably not going to get in anywhere and then I'm going to fail at life and become a hobo aaaaaaah shit what am I gonna do with my life!?!? T__T Sometimes I just lie in bed and have miniature mental breakdowns where I just thinkg about how I'm just going to be extremely unsuccessful in life and melt into a pile of useless mush.
The problem with going to a school like MIT is that there are so many smart people that I'm just feeling ridiculously incompetent and stupid all the time. And then I hear about people getting all these great jobs/offers when they graduate or people who know exactly what they wanna do and are completely on top of everything and I'm just like please just let me sit here and be a llama for the rest of my life. Moo.
Alright. I am done panicking. For now. But seriously. T_T I don't even know what schools I want to apply to yet ugh. Or what gradschool apps are, even. I just want to get into MIT's MEng program and be done with it, but I think I'm too stupid for that... T_T
Sighs. Anyway, that is why I've been woefully silent these past few weeks. (Well, part of the reason... haha). After July 21 rolls around, I will be a lot more active! There's a lot to talk about! J's visit to me, July 4th... life in general... and COMIC CON WHICH IS THIS WEEKEND OH MY GOD I AM SO EXCITED.
Welp. Back to studying. Wish me luck! T__T
You see... in a week now (holy shit oh my god) I am going to be taking the GRE.
...and I am going to fail. Grunt.
Honestly it feels like I'm back in high school studying for the SATs all over again.. Except I think I've become a lot dumber since high school... Seriously what happened to all my brilliance? It just disappeared! Also my work ethic is basically gone... as is all of my motivation. What has happened to me?! >_> Maybe life just suddenly became hard. I miss high school when everything was easy peasy we can all just happily float along and expend no effort to do well. Sighs.
But grad school?? my nonexistant readers ask.
Yes. I am indeed trying to get into gradschool. Unfortunately, my grades suck complete ass, so I'm probably not going to get in anywhere and then I'm going to fail at life and become a hobo aaaaaaah shit what am I gonna do with my life!?!? T__T Sometimes I just lie in bed and have miniature mental breakdowns where I just thinkg about how I'm just going to be extremely unsuccessful in life and melt into a pile of useless mush.
The problem with going to a school like MIT is that there are so many smart people that I'm just feeling ridiculously incompetent and stupid all the time. And then I hear about people getting all these great jobs/offers when they graduate or people who know exactly what they wanna do and are completely on top of everything and I'm just like please just let me sit here and be a llama for the rest of my life. Moo.
Alright. I am done panicking. For now. But seriously. T_T I don't even know what schools I want to apply to yet ugh. Or what gradschool apps are, even. I just want to get into MIT's MEng program and be done with it, but I think I'm too stupid for that... T_T
Sighs. Anyway, that is why I've been woefully silent these past few weeks. (Well, part of the reason... haha). After July 21 rolls around, I will be a lot more active! There's a lot to talk about! J's visit to me, July 4th... life in general... and COMIC CON WHICH IS THIS WEEKEND OH MY GOD I AM SO EXCITED.
Welp. Back to studying. Wish me luck! T__T
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